When I talk to them about suicide they think it’s a joke.
Don’t have the capacity to feel like this anymore. So close to just completely giving up.
Everyone would get over it eventually. I’m not that important.
I just think I find it really hard to accept that something in my life is going well for once and that I have the guy of my absolute dreams who loves me & would do anything for me, but I have such a horrible irrational fear of him leaving that anything that could even really slightly jeopardise out relationship I take completely out of proportion. My fears are going to drive me towards the place of no return & where my worst nightmare will become true. Unless I make a drastic change, more drastic than anything I’ve ever had to do in my life. But it’s for you, and you’re a million percent worth it. And I know that in the end I will become the most happiest little lady ever & I’ll make you the happiest man on the planet. It will be worth this struggle. I promise.
how the fuck can you like all her selfies and status’ on Facebook and Instagram and ignore mine. But still state that I’m being fucking silly being jealous when you’re completely cold with me but she’s this amazing new person. Can you not understand how insecure and unwanted this makes me feel. Haaaaate being jealous and annoyed for no reason, but there is a bloody reason. May be the most pathetic one, but it still makes me feel like I’m the size of a grain of sand.
I feel so unbelievably shit and having no one to talk to about it is seriously driving me insane. Fuck you world.
I just genuinely need someone to talk to right now. Talk to me in my ask for my number/iMessage/kik/skype/whatsapp. You get the picture.
I hate the fucking fact that I’m relapsing. Haven’t OD’d in coming up to 9 months. I’m so petrified right now, I don’t want to go back to that. I don’t want to go back to pushing everyone I love away, especially the one I love the most. I know it will happen if I continue down this path but I genuinely do not have the energy to think positively anymore.
I fucking hate you depression, you’re the biggest fucking asshole cunt ever. Can you please just fuck off again and never return.
I just feel so small and insignificant to you.